hmmm...
lebih kurang la mcm nak first one. Actually, I never planned on this second one (not this close ok!) and all of a sudden after 3 months of not having my mens... check2...dua line naik berdesup! That means, my daughter was only 5 months old when I got this little one (another one) in my womb..
The first baby was born thru caesarean ..so, I pretty much expected that this second one will be born naturally.. Well, the doctor did not put high hopes on that but still it was possible.
A few days before my due date, (expected to deliver at least on 20th august 2010) on 2nd day of Ramadhan 1431 Hijrah.. I was bleeding after sahur. Tuija juak nak sahur ya...eheheh... mcm ada mix darah n lendir. Mom suggested to go to GH for further check up because most probably, the baby's ready to come out.. Rileks jak ku masa ya. Kemas2..mandik2..tp aku sik cium pun Hashida.. sbb aku sedih..aku takut aku nangis dan akan jejaskan emosi dan tekanan darah aku. Aku limpas jak bilit mak sbb Hashida ada dalam ya walaupun hati aku meronta nak cium tangan mak, nak cium Hashida...
Sampey jak di GH, aku terus dimasuk ke labour ward sbb tekanan darah aku TINGGI gilak..berapa kali kenak cek akhirnya dtg doktor mengerobok aku...nya mdh bukak baruk 1.5 cm...sedihnya aku masa ya. maksudnya lamak gik nak nunggu bukak besar. Doa aku pada tuhan semoga dipermudahkan aku beranak kali tok. Maksudnya beranak biasa...
Dipendekkan cerita, 2 org doktor pakar dtg jumpa aku. Educate me on my method of delivery. 2 choices was given and only God knows how stressful I was at that time...First choice, normal delivery..the risk? During the process, anything can happen to the baby and me or my womb. They cant say what the risk might be but there are always there... Second choice, another caesarean. Since the first child was delivered by caesarean, if i go on with another c-sect, i have limited number of children..currently only 3 childs are allowed...and i have to take the risk after the c-sect process..bleeding...scars and all post operation effects.. which one did i take? what choice did i have?
